Monday, August 14, 2017

令人闻风丧胆的CLP

14 August 2017

so much better than what i thought. it is not that 'scary' after all. i managed to finish every question for every paper, now just hope that i will pass

 i think all of them have been exaggerated the difficulty of CLP, making people so afraid of it. So long as you finish studying everything and did the PYQ, it is really like a normal exam. But a lot of people gave up in the process, decided not to take exam after registering, or some even gave up after 2 or 3 papers. For me i think very 可惜

CLP is just a competition of time and your mentality. If you have a strong, determined and healthy mind, CLP is not that difficult after all.

I say all this not because confirm i can pass la. Even though i fail this time i'll still say the same thing.

最关键的一点是大家互相扶持的感觉对比那一年前大家互相猜疑那么多负面情绪的环境

“平均数的终结”

即使这一次我不过关,我还是会说一样的话。

Monday, May 29, 2017

我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福

有時候真的還挺懷念當初暗戀一個人時那種純純的悸動。

常常會因為某些細微的事情而臉紅心跳。比如:那麼湊巧地成為他的同桌、剛好可以和他乘搭同一趟公車、過馬路時那不小心碰觸的雙手、生日時他一個簡單的祝福。連走過他的身旁都激動不已,一個相視而笑就能扣起心湖萬般漣漪。

那時後的我,不敢主動信息,不敢主動邀約進餐。只能每天默默地期待著他的信息、他的回眸、他的問候。猜測著他每一封信息中是否有什麼隱藏的意思,思量著他每一個動作是否在暗示些什麼。他的一顰一笑都能輕易地牽動著我的心情。

那時候的我,會特地在上了廁所後繞遠路走回班上,只為了偷偷地看他一眼;也會拼命地閱讀他感興趣的文章,只為了製造那所謂的「默契」以及「共同興趣」。

那時候的我,會奮不顧身地去愛一個人,義無反顧,不求回報。

如今,卻難以再因為什麼細微的事情心跳加速,也很難再有什麼事情能激起心中的波瀾。更甚的是竟然漸漸的成為了當初自己嗤之以鼻的人,已經分不清什麼適合什麼不可。不禁捫心自問,是否成人的世界背後,總有殘缺?

有時候真的還挺懷念,那些過去單純美好的小幸福,那個純純的自己。